Changes

Many things happened recently and being betray by one of the long known friend is one of those. I guess I had use to this kind of situation, that's why it just hurt for a while. The hardest thing is that for those things he did to me, still, I need to act like nothing happen. Well, I am a cool guy so I will always "act" cool no matter what happen because this is me. My pride and principle is to be cool and just have fun all the times. HAHAHAHA

Oh yea, back to the topic, about changes, recently I realized that I just been so awkward for my pass life, I am shine and had really low confidence in the sense that I had come make eye contact with someone, maybe it's because of my pass that I was a non-importance character in everyone life except for my family and was being bullied in the school. So, somehow, I unable to make eye- contact or even approach to someone I like. Even talking to girls naturally is something like doing bungy jump. Maybe I had found that I had miss many opportunities in my life, that's why I can't afford to lost any of those anymore. I want to be in love not because I am lonely or whatsoever, it's just that this is the must process in our life. And being in love makes me know how to love a person. It's so importance to know that because without love, you can't trust anyone and do something unconditionally which is what I'm learning right now. Those factor are the reason why I change, I am so proud of myself, that I finally able to do it. HAHAHAHAHHA pride thing again* But still, I got very high man ego, aiks, stupid thing that need to get rid, but somehow man ego is importance so that they can protect their family. ( I think so) haha