Isolated

Sometimes we just try to cover our feelings as much as possible but somehow, the more we cover the more we suffocate. It'd been ages for me to discover the meaning of friends. I need to admit that I had very few "sincere" friend. What I mean by "sincere" is friends that will care about me or call me out to know how I am. And of course this are the friend that I treasure. What I want to say is that, the feeling of being isolated does not feel "GOOD" AT ALL. Sometimes you just want to pretend that they are still your friend, but when you think of the thing that they do that make you feel so isolated, how can we treat them as a friend. Maybe I think too much, or may that was true. I think that I don't care anymore because I am dissapointed and I am tired of promises that people make and they can't even fulfill it. Now what can I do now is compose a song to remember my feeling for now. This song will be the a song that dedicated for people that been isolated. What I mean is that after understand the feeling of being isolated, I think of people that are worse than my situation such as, special people that are blind, handicapped, or had special reason that people do not accept them in society, I would love to dedicate this song to them. ^^

Forget about the bad feeling, the good news is that I won the second runner up of a song composition. The title of my song is I tell my song with some help from my friend, Willis. Moreover, I got second runner up as well in a online singing competition as well, hahahaha my score is 81 and the second is 82 and champion got 83. The marks are so dam close.

This few weeks I was thinking about my career. And my hearts say that I should be in the music industry. Because I am a person that only like freedom(my nature behaviour). Working hour like 12 to 9 or 9 to 6 simply do not suit me because I am sure going to be late everytime. And there is ton of idea in my head about music that not yet explode. But still it's hard to predict the future. Who knows maybe because of situational factor, I will do something that I don't like. Who knows.......................