Recovery

The third days of rejection, not much of pain anymore, just some feeling of miss the person and some broken self-esteem. I guess that one of the reason I being so sad and miserable is because my highly "kingded" self-esteem is being slashed, now it goes back to 0 and I got to rebuild it again. Got rejected by a woman is like that woman telling you that, " hey, you are not an alpha male that I'm looking for". Although woman might not think of that, but that's what it really is, according to theory of pre-selection. One of the reason might be because she not yet recover from her pass relationship as the feeling of hurt is still there. I got to admit that I never thought this situation will happen at first...... I thought of playing and flirting in the first place. I thought it was a game that we play together, but at the end, can't believe that I fall for it, I lost. But at least now I know the feeling of in love, it makes me know what is love. Thought it would crash my faith about romantic relationship? No, I still not yet give up in romantic love. I still believe there is someone that will appreciate it. One more things is that, she still message me after that which makes me a little bit confuse, but hey, I don't give a dam anymore although the feeling toward her is still there but we shall see how......